A glimpse of the past…

I awoke too early tonight, an hour before the sun had fully set.  With a gasp my eyes had flown open, my heart racing as if I had been running from something terrible in my dreams.  Though the shadows of my bedroom still held me close in their cool blue embrace, I could feel the heavy hand of the sun’s rays just beyond the tightly fastened shutters and drawn drapes. Very rarely do I dream now, the sleep impermeable to the restless demons of my subconsciousness, yet tonight my mind felt heavy and disoriented with the ghosts of images that slipped from my grasp in an oily elusiveness.  His scent was all around me, thick in my nose as if he had lain next to me as I slept.  I closed my eyes and rolled over, pressing my face into the pillow and inhaling deeply.  Even the fabric held his perfume, sweet and strange, amber and earth and salt.  I knew there was no way he could have gained entrance to my home, past the layers of alarms I set each morning shortly before dawn.  I knew this, yet the residue of the dream was simply far too real forcing me to leave my bed and prowl through the house, checking each dark corner just in case my senses had suddenly failed me after all these long years.  Nothing.

The house was empty…

I had planned on returning to the loft where I had sensed him last night, but something is holding me captive.  Perhaps it is the lingering question of how he may have changed in the fifty years since I last saw him?  Or what brings him back to the city of his dark rebirth?  Fifty years, after all, is not a great deal of time for one of our kind, not nearly enough time to experience the world and all of its myriad wonders.  No, tonight I had chosen to lose myself in the hunt, hoping the blood of a fresh kill might focus me more completely and chase away the remnants of the dreams that still clung to me, a second skin of reminiscence.  And for a while it did…but it could not make me forget entirely…

Tomorrow night…I make this promise to myself…tomorrow night…

~ by vampirefaust on November 18, 2007.